I am alive

I just realised that I have not been here in a while. Hello friends. I am still alive and don’t worry, I am not here just to post a Tuesday Tune. Although that will start again from this week onwards. ūüėČ

I have been uber busy since the last time I was here, late nights working till 10 pm. One night even ended up at 1 am. I have had so much happening, training, work and deadlines.

I can hear you asking about fun… well, that has been out on the back burner for a bit… sad but true.

I don’t know about you, but can you believe that it is the 1st of August already? One month till Spring… *insert happy dance here*

I will catch up with everyone soon.
Take care,
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Tuesday Tune: She looks so perfect

Yes, my friends, quickly run to the window and see if you can see rain clouds…

Are you back? Cause I sure am.

I do apologise for my… what would you call it?

Hiatus? Absence? Radio silence?

I honestly do not know where the time has flown to. Things have just been really hectic on my side of the world and when I looked again, it was the first day of September and my fourth month started as Production Editor. In this time I have learnt so much and I think that I have grown a lot. I think that everyone has been doing well since the editor went on maternity leave. She had a little boy btw. She will be back on 22 September and once she is back, maybe things will go a little slower. Hahaha, yeah right. **Wink**

The company has advertised my previous position, which is good. Once short-listed CVs are received, I will sit in on interviews. Once a person is appointed again, I will have to train them, but that’s a good thing, because I didn’t have that kind of training.

My family are doing well. It is that time of year where half of them are having birthdays, which is not bad at all. We just get to see one another a lot. The girlies have grown so much. Noodle has started calling me by my name and she says it so beautifully. Cutie Pie has also become a little girl in her own right who likes playing hairdresser with my hair. I swear it feels like she is pulling it out at times, but it is tons of fun.

So… I started dating again… and it has been an interesting journey. I will definitely do a longer post in due course.

But‚Ķ today is Tuesday, which means that it is time for a Tuesday Tune? Today‚Äôs tune is a song called ‚ÄėShe looks so perfect‚Äô. This has been my “car¬†song” lately. I sing along quite loudly and well, I have had some weird looks from fellow drivers, but you know what? I don‚Äôt really care. I am me and I am happy and well, it is Spring. What is not to love about life? Btw, how do you like the new look of my blog? ūüôā

She looks so perfect
5 seconds of summer

Hey, hey, hey, hey
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Hey, hey, hey, hey

Simmer down, simmer down
They say we’re too young now to amount to anything else
But look around
We work too damn hard for this just to give it up now
If you don’t swim, you’ll drown
But don’t move, honey

You look so perfect standing there
In my American Apparel underwear
And I know now, that I’m so down
Your lipstick stain is a work of art
I got your name tattooed in an arrow heart
And I know now, that I’m so down (hey!)

Hey, hey!
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Hey, hey, hey, hey

Let’s get out, let’s get out
‘Cause this deadbeat town’s only here just to keep us down
While I was out, I found myself alone just thinking
If I showed up with a plane ticket
And a shiny diamond ring with your name on it
Would you wanna run away too?
‘Cause all I really want is you

You look so perfect standing there
In my American Apparel underwear
And I know now, that I’m so down
I made a mixtape straight out of ’94
I’ve got your ripped skinny jeans lying on the floor
And I know now, that I’m so down

Hey, hey!
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Hey, hey, hey, hey

You look so perfect standing there
In my American Apparel underwear
And I know now, that I’m so down
Your lipstick stain is a work of art
I got your name tattooed in an arrow heart
And I know now, that I’m so down

Hey, hey!
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Hey, hey, hey, hey

You look so perfect standing there
In my American Apparel underwear
And I know now, that I’m so down (hey)
Your lipstick stain is a work of art (hey, hey)
I got your name tattooed in an arrow heart (hey, hey)
And I know now, that I’m so down (hey, hey)

 Life

Life, love and everything else (part 4)

Click here for part 1,  part 2 and part 3.

So the whole experience wasn’t all doom and gloom. I met a few people and had good chats. There are some genuinely nice guys out there, but, they have been hurt, and from what I can gather, they are weary of putting themselves out there.

I don’t think anyone ever said that that finding a potential match in life would be easy. I mean, times have changed. This isn’t the time where you meet someone and bang, everything falls into place. You meet your soul mate and birds are singing, stars are shining and the whole world is happy. Let’s face it, I was not looking for the love of my life (although if lightning did strike, I won’t say no) but, all I want is someone who I like that I can call up and say hey, wanna go to the movies? Someone who I can just be with, someone who I like and who likes me… Yes, I know life and relationships are a little more complicated than that… But I think this chick (me) took a major step out of her comfort zone to try this and I am very proud of myself.

I remember driving to the two dates I had, thinking: “What are you doing Kathleen?” Then there were random thoughts like: “Maybe I should turn around and go home?” However, I didn’t go home. I went on to meet with the two guys. I did it. Btw, there was a meeting planned with a third guy (who I haven’t mentioned), but life happened (as it does) and a rain check was given. Let’s wait and see if that ever gets cashed in… I won’t be holding my breath though ūüėČ .

Anyways, after all this,¬†I have removed my profile from both dating sites, I have packed the unused sim card away. I think I will try the¬†dating site thing again, maybe when¬†Spring comes around? Who knows? That’s the beautiful thing about life, it is a mystery. Sounds a little clich√© hey?

In my voyage into this whole dating site thing, I have learnt a few things about myself and about what I want or would like:

  1. I have never been in love. I know that that is shocking to hear, especially because of my age, but if the potential beau wants to change that, he is welcome to. I am open to it.
  2. I know that I am not too open about giving information away about myself. I can get you to talk, that’s easy, but getting myself to open up and talk is a whole other story. I have to work on that.
  3. I kinda suck at flirting… although I think that would come to an end when I actually meet a person. Also, I am not good with flirting over a phone, unfortunately, but maybe I should practise a little more?
  4. I know that I will not be finding a beau without baggage. I know that he will¬†either ¬†have an ex-wife, a kid, or¬†he would of had a¬†very bad breakup.¬†At my age, it is to be expected. I was studying while other people were getting married and settling down. I am cool with it, I get that the potential will have¬†a history, but all I ask is that he does not mention his ex in EVERY¬†conversation. It makes a girl think¬†that he is not quite over the ex¬†and well… maybe he should be taking her to dinner instead?
  5. I need to find a beau who will not be intimidated by me… yes, I am successful, but,¬†why should that be a problem? I am me… I am a nice person.
  6. I am not an airhead and I actually like having proper conversations. I can converse on all topics, from sports to cars to actors to sex to websites to photography to magazines and all the happenings in the world around us. If the potential beau wants an airhead, then maybe he should be dating a 20-year-old who is most likely only after his money.
  7. Oh and I am not dating you for your money.
  8. I am NOT a damsel in distress, I am a bit of a tom boy, so get used to it.  I can sort out a flat tyre, I can fix a kitchen light, hell, I can even tell you where the fuse box is in my car is, but just because I know these things does not make me any less of a lady.
  9. I do not do clingy people. I like my space. If I don’t answer my phone or reply to a message straight away, don’t panic.
  10. I do not own whips or chains… well, not yet anyways. ūüėČ
  11. I need to find a beau¬†who lives nearby. Namibia and Bloemfontein¬†are a bit too far away, and with the price of petrol going up and e-tolls ¬†(if you pay them, which is a debatable subject… ) it can get expensive
  12. Yes, I do go to church, but I won’t shove my faith down your throat. I am not that kind of person.
  13. If you have lost interest in me. TELL ME. I don’t appreciate being made a fool of.¬†If you are interested in me, then for goodness sake… TELL ME! I can’t do this ¬†whole “does he like me?” dialogue in my head.
  14. I swear and I curse and I lose my temper sometimes. I try not to, but sometimes it happens. The potential beau should not be offended any of that happens.
  15. I have been around adults all my life. In nursery school, my teacher wrote on my report card “Kathleen likes adult company”. I was four when she wrote that and yes, I always seek out conversation from people older than myself. So, to me, age is just a number… if the potential beau is a little more mature, it is cool… however, no beau’s over 50 thanks. ūüėČ

Anyways…there is my list… I am sending it out into the universe. If I can find a guy who accepts the above, then great. If not, then maybe¬†my brothers are right? Maybe I am just too fussy? Or as they say “full of shit”? Although… that is a rhetorical question and it does not need to be answered. ūüėČ

Okay, so, this is a¬†last thought… I don’t particularly believe in horoscopes, I do find it all very interesting with the whole astronomy thing and personalities, but I decided to browse my horoscope on Wednesday and this is what it said:

You may be wearing rose-coloured glasses when it comes to the way a certain person has been treating you. Maybe you don’t see the lack of respect or¬†kindness¬†because you don’t want to. Or maybe you are choosing¬†to seek out possible reasons for this behaviour, and you’re making¬†excuses¬†for that person. But what you really need to do is remind yourself how valuable and special you are, and that you don’t deserve to¬†be treated in such a way. Stand up for yourself Scorpio.

With life happening around me, this makes a lot of sense.¬†and I agree… I am valuable and special and I think¬†I deserve the best that’s out there for me. ūüôā

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